I did it!

(Disclaimer: my spirit does not care for ridgid spelling or grammer rules.)



I seem to be attracted this ackward interaction with people around life coaching.

How is that going?

Are you making any money?



They don't mean to sound hostile. But, it shakes my confidence. Why don't I have a script? Why can't I prove that This is a good idea? I sputter and sound a little short of intellegent. The interaction exhaustes me.



I sense a threat (I use that term very loosly) before they open their mouths. Oh no they are going to ask about my business. About my baby who is not feeling well right now. Who is mis behaving in school. Should I lie? I can't lie. And I am praying that they stop looking at me. That I will find the words to silence their critic who is aggitating my critic.



What i want is to pray for the ability to speak from my heart. What I want is an open heart. I don't want to have to play games. At the sixth sensory workshop, Sonia called it a devotion. But the more I would talk about my devotion the further away I felt form it. It is between me and God.



So How do i talk to these people?

How do i keep my heart open